You have heard that smart women make bad choices? That’s me! I am the queen of bad choices when it comes to men and once I learned to own my bad choices; I was able to change how I made decisions. But…I definitely had to get a few things off my chest.

So….I sat down to write it out….

An open letter to the past men in my life.

Dear …Bruce, Mark, Keith, Joe,….just fill in a name

I want to thank you for all that you added to my life over the years.

The self doubt… 
the mental anguish
the effects dating you had on my self esteem
the gas lighting
the trust issues
the commitment issues

I must admit I had no idea that I knew so many construction workers.  The strength of the wall you built around my heart is impressive. 

It is very interesting how many of you claim to be adults yet you played with my heart and emotions like they were toys to be used and tossed around and when they finally broke, you threw them away to be replaced by another.

So many of you complained that no one cared about you or ever worried about you and when I did; somehow that was no longer what you wanted. It was too much…you felt trapped.

 I must say many of you have been unforgettable..

The Oregon Beaver…not only was he seeing multiple women, one of them messaged me on my birthday to let me know. What a Christmas Eve that was…pretty sure I couldn’t return that gift.


Covington said all the right things as he was on 6 dating sites, texting multiple women…including hookers…and then getting 
outraged because I read his text messages upside down.  Intelligent women are a cheaters kryponite. 


I want to especially thank Natchez  for allowing other women to verbally attack me as you sat on your ass and kept your mouth shut because you didn’t like confrontation.  The real reason is you had plans to fuck the crazy bitch again..so why mess up a good thing.

I think I am most grateful to the man who spent multiple years in my life and my bed.  You honestly deserve the most thanks.  I must say you really had me.  I thought I was really something in your life.  But then you said, you didn’t want a relationship, you traveled too much.  Well…call me crazy..but you were in a relationship with another woman…an open relationship…and you  had been for months and you just forgot to tell me.  She let you fuck other women but I wonder if she realized if you could lie to me for so long, how could you not lie to her? I waited for you to tell me the truth until I had to confront you and your excuse…I didn’t know what to say so I just wasn’t going to say anything.  Wow…. I was devastated until I wasn’t.

So I would like to thank all of you for the sleepless nights of over analyzation as I tried to figure out what was wrong with me. The massive trust issues I am now plagued with because I no longer believe men are capable of telling the truth. And finally the fear that I am incapable of ever allowing a man to get close to me again. I would love to be able to present you all with best actor awards for your convincing portrayal of the romantic lead in my life who had me believing that you were different from other men. I love the accurate portrayal of male outrage as you said the standard lines: “we aren’t all the same, just give me a chance.”

But mostly I want to say to all of you…that karma is a bitch and pardon my bluntness…
Fuck Off!